Friday, February 20, 2009

Problem..?

So you think you have problems? Out of a job? Financially strapped? Love life sucks? Feeling insecure? Desperately seeking attention for it? Your manicure chipped?
Whatever it is... do you really think you have it bad? Let me school you on something. This was a scene somewhere @ metropolitan city…There was this old lady. She was sitting down. With a wizened old face, scrunched up through years of b**ls**t she probably had to go through, she cut a forlorn figure sitting on her own, with a cane, and a black plastic bag, watching the world go by in the fast paced and unforgivingly challenging metropolitan city.
Oh yes... people stopped occasionally to give her money. But she never asked for it. Not once. Not at all. She would sit for half an hour intervals or so for about fifteen minutes to rest her tired feet, yang cuma pakai selipar nipis, offering no protection whatsoever for her tired, aging toes.
She was not looking for handouts. Or a loan. Or sympathy. Nothing. She was just minding her own business, without complaint. Kali pertama dia bangun, how strong this old lady was.
No... she walked with a slow shuffle. One step at a time, almost painfully. Painful even to watch.
Her strength was in her will, her heart and her resolve.
Sebab selepas beberapa langkah, she use the same cane that barely supported her weight, to take a stab at some plastic flying and swirling on the ground. She bent over slowly and with much effort, pulled at the plastic pastu masukkan dalam beg sampah dia.
Probably in her Seventies, nenek tua ni masih bekerja. She had no time for self pity.
She had no time for moaning about her fate.
Never mind her drab night gown. Or the cracked soles of her feet. Tu semua tak penting. Yang penting meneruskan tugasnya tanpa mengharap belas kasihan orang kerana umur atau keadaan dirinya.
She just kept going at it. Slowly cleaning whatever area she could cover for little bits of trash. Tak henti henti... Sedih melihat kegigihan nenek tua nih.
Honestly. Aku sedih... sat on the stairs observing her for over half an hour. Thinking about the selfish people in my life who think THEY'VE got problems.
Thinking about myself and how I allowed to let insignificant things pull me away from the flow of my life.. those little dramas, I allow myself to be engaged in. She shamed me for not being happy with what I have and not being thankful enough with her strength.
And she made me angry at myself and a lot of people who seldom appreciate the things we take so for granted.
And she went on....inspiring me with every second. Pausing to buy a drink - with HER OWN money from the pocket of her dressing gown with a string tied around her waist as a belt.No freebies. No asking for sympathy.
She could have... but she didn't. She was earning her living. And tetap nenek tua nih, pas abihkan her refreshment, offering perhaps a minute burst of energy, she continued. Painfully.
Inspiring me with every second, as I shed tear after tear. about how she persevered in the face of adversity. Looking back at these pictures, I recall how she handled herself.
Derita nya hanya Tuhan je yang tahu. Tapi dia tak pernah menyerah kalah pada takdirnya. She did something about it.And maybe, at the the end of it. She's the happiest person if all of us were compared. Happy not in terms of much for us, but in terms of her true spirit to fight against the predetermined fate of our lives, and making me at least, realise that we choose to make ourselves what we are.
Someone asked me, "why don't you do something about it. Why don't you give her some money."
I could. I always do when I see someone who needs that help. But money... unlike what some will believe... is not the answer to everything.
I identified with something in this old woman. Something told me, while she will not refuse aid, her pride was worth a lot more. That's why she wanted to EARN her living.
In every painful step. She looked more taller, with a more elegant poise than most people I've seen and more beautiful in my eyes than anyone I've ever met in my whole life.
Her beauty came from her strength, her heart, her will and her poise in dealing with the world. And bagaimana dia tidak menyalahkan takdir untuk nasibnya, dan menyerah kalah begitu saja.
No amount of material items on you can make you as beautiful as this old lady. Kepada nenek, I know you won't be reading this, but I pray to God... that he'll bless you for you are truly one of his most beautiful creations.
Sedey pon ada ketika taip ni... in my few days of incessant drama never ceasing, you have taught me a lesson without knowing about what real courage and strength is. May God bless you...

Friday, February 6, 2009

Al Kisahnyeeeee



Alkisahnya... 260bhp wagon yang aku bawak hari tu tersadai dkt workshop akibat "dicium" oleh proton waja...

Friday, January 30, 2009

Back to Nature...




yehhaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!
lets go to nature...


Thursday, January 15, 2009

Terengganu Chapter 2...

Alhamdulillah.. itulah 1st ayat yang keluar bila aku sampai di terminal KT, pukul 5 pg.
perjalanan yang sangat3 bosan dan penat. Sebenarnya, sepanjang perjalanan aku x dapat lelap...
sebab2nya...
a) bas aku naek tu 2 tingkat, so bila duk dekat ataih, goyang semcam je... (orang lain aku x tau la)
b) Teringat seseorang dekat rumah... sapa lagi kalau bukan buah hati aku...
c) x suka naik bas malam, tapi teringin nak bas 2 tigkat...
my fren, amek aku kat terminal KT dan balik umah ke dia... dan la tidoq sat...
Pukul 8.30 pg - aku dan my fren dah tercegat dekat IKBN Wakaf Tapai, Tganu... nak setelkan masalah yang timboi..
pukul 10.00pg - Sesi perundingan dan perbincangan dgn 3 pihak (GSB, IKBN, Kontraktor) selesai- masalah setel.
pukul 10.30pg - Aku dan my fren bergegas ke LKIM cendering untuk lihat lokasi stesyen Geodasi JUPEM.
Subhanallahhhh... tempat tu... walaupun dia tempat pendaratan ikan dan pelabuhan kapal2 nelayan, aku rasa tenang dan damai sekali... dan buat sekian kalinya, aku teringat seseorang dekat rumah... alangkah bestnya kalau dia ada sama dan aku berjanji akan datang lagi dekat sini dengan orang tersayang...
Actuli aku ke stesyen Geodasi tu nak pantau dan testing sistem VSAT (satelit) yang nak dipasang dekat situ, tapi ada banyak malasah yang timbul. antaranya:
a) Kabin stesen geodasi tu x mampu menampung bebanan Satelit yang besar bagak tu.
b) Tak dak tempat yang sesuai nak letak satelit yang besar bagak tu.
c) banyak lagi la acara masalah yang timbul... kang panjang pulak aku nk x plain...penat x habih lagi..
kesimpulannya, testing x dapat buat dan aku ke terengganu ni, lebih kepada makan angin... sambil ++ kan pendapatan... hahah...Pukul 9.30mlm, my fren hantar aku balik ke terminal KT... ingat nak naik flite, tapi apakan daya, x sempat beli... dah tu, flite ke LCCT@ subang ada 1 penerbangan je...
hampeh... dan aku kena la naik bas jugak... alkisahnya, aku samapai ke kampung halaman pukul 6.00pg... dan hari ni 14 Jan 09, adalah traveling day.. aku x p keja...jadi aku lepak rumah sambil tidoq... tu je cite aku...


Monday, January 12, 2009

Terengganu Chapter 1

Masuk ni dah berapa kali aku p terengganu... aku pun x tau.. rasanya dah puluh kali...
tapi yang bestnye, satu gabaq pun aku x amek... hmmm,
pas tu dalam bulan 1 ni, ini adalah kali ke dua aku p terengganu... dan myb kana ke KT balik ujung bulan ni... dan buat 1st time gak, malam ni , aku naek bas sowang2 ke KT... menurut kata pemerhati, perjalan akan mengambil masa +- 8 jam! sure bosan... sebab apa aku pilih bas...? hari khamis lepas 8hb aku dah naik ikot atas... jadi hari ni aku ikot darat lak... x pe, bas pun bas lah. tapi actuli aku x suke naek bas... warghhhh! bosan doe!!
by d way... ni la rope bas yang aku nak naek tu... nampak je best... tapiiiiiiiiii.........

kawan - kawan...

kawan-kawan,
kenapa mahu lawan,
kita kan kawan,
dulu sama-sama kongsi teh secawan,
kawan-kawan,
kenapa mahu lawan,
orang lain maju kedepan,
orang kita cari jalan,
jatuhkan kawan,
kawan-kawan,
kenapa mahu lawan,
kan ke cukup rezeki Tuhan,
buat kita ramai-ramai makan,
kawan- kawan,
bukan nak cari lawan,
sekadar nak ingatkan teman,
hati-hati gunting dalam lipatan
kawan-kawan,
kita sama-sama cari makan,
bila fikir masa depan,
jangan tabur pasir dalam periuk kawan,
kawan-kawan,
cuba kaji orang tua pesan,
kawan jadi lawan
lawan jadi kawan...